Corusca

‘A series of unfortunate events’ seemed like the perfect title for this post even though I have not clue what the books with the same name are about. I felt it was adequate since it accurately describes events that have occurred this past few days and that are making me look into several aspects of my life. In some cases, leading me to unfortunate conclusions. Things that need to be fixed. Some that can’t be fixed.

My mother has recently found *something* inside her organism that should not be there. A three point six centimetres something. I’m worried, especially considering her side of the family’s history of cancer. She’s doing some medical exams this week, and no matter what the results are, she will very likely have to have a surgical removal of the *something*. If I was religious or believed any of that divine crap, I’d be praying right now. I’m not, so I just worry. And wait.

This leads me to the second unfortunate event.  She was going to have the first medical exam today, Monday, but instead she and my father will be attending a funeral. A friend of theirs passed away this weekend. Someone I didn’t know very well. But still someone I knew. I didn’t ask my mother the cause of death on the phone because she sounded a bit down and I did not want to press the matter and possibly making this more painful. The last time I saw him, it was pretty visible that his health was far from great. Paraphrasing someone, though his death was not unexpected, at the same time it was. It always is.

Not sure if I should attend the funeral also. Might call them to know the when and where to see if it’s feasible, considering how things at work aren’t going great. Though, considering my heading-to-depression mood lately, it might be better for me emotionally to simply skip it.

The last (at least I hope it’s the last – I certainly don’t need more) event, not really an event, but a realization. It wasn’t even a sudden realization – it’s been dawning on me for a few months now after a series of attitudes and events accumulated. How bad is it to realize that friends find you discardable? Pretty bad, yeah. Seems like we’re only ‘friends who’s existence we very occasionally remember’.

A few months back, soon after we announced to people we were getting married, a friend of ours told me people’s attitudes change and people’s natures reveal themselves very visibly when people are getting married, sometimes not in the expected way. I didn’t think much of it then, being fully confident things were solid, but it’s been making a ton of sense lately. I’m feeling like an idiot for believing things were different, but above all I feel like crap.

I hope this Monday is not the start of a week that continues on the downward spiral the previous week ended on. I’ve never been more glad I have someone to hold my hand, hug me and tell me things will get better. I love you.

Just dropping a post here to show I’m alive. *waves*

Been up to a zillion things this week. Wedding-wise, we’ve gotten the rings, taken care of the honey moon trip (it’s officially a trip to Thailand, yay), and gotten the DJ (plus some extras like lighting) out of the way. Still a zillion more things that need taking care of, but that we were unable to get out of the way this week. Like the passport, which we were going to get yesterday around five thirty-ish, but ended up not being able to deal with it since the ‘tickets’ to take care of this issue had already expired by 12h30m. The conclusion is that we will need to go there around 8 am to get it made, otherwise the same thing will happen again.

Oh, got an SMS earlier from the store, and seems my laptop is fixed. I hope it is, and that it does not come back with other problems. Will have to go get it Saturday or something since tomorrow we’re going on a road trip/picnic with some friends who are kindly organizing it. \o/

That reminds me, we must take care of some stuff today like getting some beach towels or something, sun block, and charging my digital camera so we can take lots of cool photos. I hope the weather is good throughout the trip.

Oh, I’ve been going out to lunch with my kitten almost every day this week. He’s on vacations so we can meet up at that hour and that way I sort of relax for a while before coming back to work. It’s not the same as me having vacations but it helps pass the work day faster.

And now for a WoW part of the post (skip if not interested :P) : Yesterday we went with some guildies to some old raid instances – Zul’Aman and Onyxia. It was a very pleasant, relaxed raid in good company. One of our guildies who has recently volunteered to play with us more with his holy priest to help out with our healer shortage is not only über-nice, but has been a quick learner in priestly business. The only thing he didn’t do well in was the 25-man tanking of Razuvious, but that’s a matter of practice, nothing more.

Oh, Onyxia dropped the Hunter epic bow-quest item and since I was the only hunter in the raid, I ninja-ed it so I can do the quest line (no one minded, of course), even if it is 20 levels after it should be done. Will be a fun experience, I hope.

Speaking of fun in WoW, I’ve been leveling my Paladin the past weekend and been having a blast. Pew pew!

Wishing you all a nice weekend, since tomorrow’s a holiday here in Portugal. Three-day weekend, yeah! \m/